بِسْـــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم
Wow I feel like I haven’t wrote in years. I’m really sorry I’ve been very busy with school works serious sibuk sangat sangat sibuk and well now I have some spare time so I decided to write in my blog about what I myself experienced about a few weeks ago.
This happened on 8-9th March, I was getting ready to sleep that night because the next day actually dah mula exam so I slept at about 10. I had a dream, a really bad dream. In that dream, my beloved abah has passed away and only God knows sedihnya waktu tu. In that dream too, I wrote some messages on my bed sheet every single night to my father as he was dead. It was indeed very sad and it really felt real.
I woke up out of the blue. Ingat balik mimpi tadi, I cried silently. At that time it was nearly 1 in the morning. Dengan rendah hatinya I tell you, I tak pernah langsung bangun solat malam on my own (dekat kem motivasi je pernah but berjemaah) and I’ve been waiting for that chance because sebelum ni memang banyak excuses, itulah inilah. And so, I was really grateful that Allah woke me up that night as I know He has been waiting for me as well. I stopped crying, I quickly on my phone balik (sebab weekday I off phone) and googled about solat sunat malam.
Then I quickly went to the toilet, ambil sembahyang and bentang sejadah. First up, solat tahajud. I felt something in my heart, something I’ve never felt before. I felt happy, sad and mostly I thank Allah for this opportunity as this is my FIRST ‘qiamullail’ ever on my own. It was a really beautiful night, very very beautiful night. And then, masa tengah solat tahajjud tu, tiba-tiba hujan turun. You know what they say, waktu hujan ialah waktu makbulnya doa kan? Ya Allah.. I was.. I don’t know how to describe that feeling. Allah is really the most gracious and the most merciful. I started to cry a lil’ bit but still boleh tahan lagi.
Lepas bagi salam solat tahajud, I tadah tangan and I couldn’t stand it any more. I cried and cried, tears started to flow and I just wanted them to flow until my heart is content. I prayed to Allah, I thanked Allah for this opportunity and I just couldn’t stop saying “Thank you, Allah.”
It was really a beautiful, calm, soothing night in my life.
Thank you, Allah.
