#15 Fainnama'al Usri Yusro Innama'al Usri Yusro

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

This is a story of a lady, who like everyone else, just got her SPM results.

As the naughtiest and loudest person in this family, I got to say I never expected to get this kind of result. I was never the smartest person in school, nor in class. I wasn’t born a genius either. What I had were my parents, my friends and most importantly, Allah. I always believe that for every hardship there will surely be ease and we must keep going no matter what. No. matter. what. Alhamdulillah, now that I got my result and best to say that I did it, even though I’m not the best student in school. This is by far my biggest and greatest achievement, Alhamdulillah. Through my hardships I’ve learned a lot of lessons as well as knowing how strong how I really am. Yes, I wanted to give up. Yes, I cried a lot. Yes, I failed sooo many times. But then I started to realize that I learned a lot from my failures and my mistakes. I wasn’t afraid to make mistakes anymore, because I know that afterwards, I’ll become more knowledgeable as the saying goes, you never learn anything if you never fail.

Believe it or not, I never wanted to be a science student. I hated science, oh for God’s sake! But I guess Allah knows what’s best for me because I got accepted to pure science stream class due to my PT3 result (although I got B for my maths and C for my science). I guess things were going too fast as I accepted the offer and decided to ‘TRY FIRST’. Things were not easy, yes, but they were not possible to learn. I started to realize that I actually enjoyed learning sciences subjects especially biology and for add maths as well (but only for certain topics)

Based on a true story. I was never really a fan of chemistry. I started to understand those mol things and electrolysis in form 5. During form 4, my marks would be around 50-60. Even after I understood those topics completely and I did a lot of homeworks, ( I also made my own book of experiment collections for Psyshics, Biology & Chemistry, all hand-written) I still didn't get an A. I got a B+ for my chemistry during trial. I repeat, I never got an A for my chemistry test. Amazingly, like a miracle, I got an A+ for my chemistry in SPM. That striked me the most, it made me realize even more that Allah is the most merciful, Allah listens, Allah cares. After all my hard work, my struggles, He finally gives me an A+. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah.

I know that I have a longgg way to go in this life and I have no idea what the future holds for me. But consider this as a favour, to help and inspire my juniors and students out there that you are capable of so many things. You might like something that’s not good for you and you might hate something that is good for you. Allah knows it all. Some tips (if you can call it that) from me to students and youngsters, especially those who will be taking PT3 and SPM:

·         Solat. Never miss one. That is the most powerful weapon and with solat you get to release your stress, tell your problems to Allah, cry your heart out, He hears ‘em all.

·         Read Al-Quran every single day, if you’re busy even one page is enough. Don’t keep your Quran; don’t let it be coated with dusts. Open it, recite it and most importantly, feel it in your heart, Allah is talking to you.

·         Find your own way of remembering facts. Like me, I would write and do notes multiple times until I memorize it, don’t worry; you won’t be running out of pens or paper ha-ha.

·         Always respect your teachers and other students. Being in the smartest class doesn’t mean you need to treat the others badly. Guide them, teach them and show them that you care about them and you want them to succeed together. “Apa yang penting? Kerjasama!” loll

·         No cursing, please. I admit that I, too kadang2 cakap lepas & mulut laser but when it comes to cursing, whoop you’ve seriously stepped over the line. Especially the youngsters today, those crappy words just came out of their mouth so smoothly... I wonder why, I wonder how. Seriously you’ve got to watch your language. Those bad words are the reason why it’s so hard for us to understand what we learn. bak kata orang, hati sudah hitam dengan terlalu banyak mencarut.

·         Spend your time wisely, I am a fan of movies, big big fan and I know you like K-drama and stuffs, but you need to plan wisely, when’s the right time to study, when’s the right time for entertainment. Those oppa oppa cannot help you unless you help yourselves okay?

·         Never ever tangguh your homeworks. As long as you got time, finish them! Only then it’s up to you whether to play or to continue studying. Remember that time is gold; you can’t never turn back time so spend it wisely, very wisely.

·         During your ample time, when you’re waiting for the bus or when you’re in the van, open up a book. Read. Ignore what others say or think. If you read notes from school, who knows maybe that one time could help you understand some things ( I have a story of this actually, when I was on the van on my way home from school, I used to read a chemistry revision book and I read about electrolysis, one of the most challenging topics and I kept repeating reading it and at one moment it was like a light bulb just appeared on my head and suddenly, i figured it all out! I understood everything and it all finally made sense to me, amazingly: D )
- Keep going. You’re stronger than you think you are. I was weak, but now I finally know what I’m capable of. Like Dory said, just keep swimming, just keep swimming! Things are hard, but that’s life. If everything in this world is easy, then there would be nothing interesting, nothing amazing and nothing inspiring. Hard is what makes it great.

I think that would be all from me, if you have any questions don’t be afraid to ask me on instagram @annaezaha_ . I would be happy to help you, I would like to take this moment to say thank you to my parents, umi and abah. I know my result is nothing compared to what you’ve given me since the day you brought me into this world. And I promise that I will keep struggling and will try my best to be better each day, thank you for supporting me through every steps, helping me since my first day at school 12 years ago until I finished school. Thank you for letting me know the true value of life, and for teaching me lots of valuable lessons in life, by travelling mostly. Day by day I know that I want to be a better person. Then, to my teachers, though I cannot make a list of all of you here, I pray that you will live a healthy and a happy life. I remember kena rotan, denda superman, denda berdiri atas kerusi. Seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for those. Because of your rotan and denda, I am who I am today. I also pray that Allah will give you the strength and courage to go through all the challenges while producing the future leaders and apprentice. Last but not least, to my friends, old and new, thank you for the memories, for laughing with me and crying with me. One year ago, we were just a bunch of students struggling and cracking our heads, who would’ve thought that time would fly so fast, eh? The next day, we’ll all be separated and meet new friends, have a career, get married, and have kids. Gosh, I’m an adult!